My Horoscope Knows I'm Pathetic At Verbal Communication!

Your horoscope for August 28, 2008

As a Capricorn, KS, verbal communication isn't always a strong suit. Working out problems with others can be challenging as a result - especially when you're really angry. Consider writing a letter to the person involved as a means to speak your mind. This alternative may prove far more comfortable and effective for you as it gives you the time you need to think about your words. Further, the recipient also has time to consider your perspective before responding. Give this a try.

Having No Regrets

It’s easy to say “I have no regrets”… but do we really mean it when we say it?

I made some choices in the past regarding my life, my career… and various other things. Those choices felt right at that point of time in life. But were they really right?

If the whole world around you keeps reminding you of how something could have been if you had taken the “left turn” instead of the “right” that you took, then doesn’t it mean that a part of you does have regrets for making that choice in life?

If, even after years and years, you keep fantasizing about how things could have been if you had made that other choice, then shouldn’t you change your ways and grab the first opportunity that comes your way, which could take you back along that “left turn” you missed earlier?

The Universe has its own ways of letting you know that you made a wrong choice – inner restlessness, frustration, low self-esteem, accidents, ill health – you name it! But the moment you think of getting back to where you belong, your world suddenly turns right again! You feel relaxed and at peace – with the world and with yourself. You feel more energetic and optimistic than ever before.

So then, let’s say for example, there is something in this world that I really enjoy -- I find it extremely relaxing… even “better than sex” in fact! I have dreamt and desired this something for years now. But when I do get it, I give it up only because of my refusal to change! Only because I choose to remain stubbornly inflexible and inadaptable!

Shouldn’t I have any regrets about making this choice then?

Ok maybe right now my ego is more important to me. Maybe right now, my need to cling on to my past experiences is stronger than allowing fresh new episodes in my life to unfold. But what when I’m 90?

(Ok most people get themselves a rocking chair in their sixties, but I started late in life, so I’ll reach the “rocking-chair phase” only in my nineties… not before that!)

So when I’m 90 and sitting in my rocking chair… and reflecting back upon my life… with decades of experience and wisdom-that-comes-only-with-old-age having already squashed my ego to “nothing”… will I still have no regrets about letting go of the one thing that I wanted so much in life – even more than sex?

When I realize that I could have enjoyed that thing for 60 years straight if only I’d let go of my ego instead that day… if only I had taken one more chance in letting the Universe create a happy movie for me instead of the regular disastrous ones… if only I had adopted a little more flexibility in my approach that day… when I realize all of this, would I still not have any regrets?

I’m not 90 yet… I’m still 30… and I may have wasted a few years till now, but I still can have my heart’s desire to enjoy for the next 60 years! As such, I’d rather be regretful now, when I still have time to make amends, than at the age of 90! I’d rather let go of my ego and my reluctance to change, than that thing which I like “even more than sex” and which I’ve dreamt about continuously for the last few years!

Why People Don’t Heal?

I am supposed to listen to the audio book by Carolyn Myss – “Why People Don’t Heal?” But before I started on it, I decided to put down my own experiences related to it over here – reasons which stood as obstacles in my healing.

I remember my Reiki 3 class – I was extremely scared of trying out that “Psychic Surgery” thing! I was sure that I wouldn’t be able to get it right! Hence, I was afraid to even try it! But my Reiki teacher wouldn’t take “no” for an answer! He, in fact, made me practice it for several extra minutes just so I could get comfortable with it. Eventually it became one of my favorite healing techniques for quite a long time.

Something else I was extremely afraid of doing – so much so that I tried to completely avoid doing it 2.5 years ago – only because I was sure I wouldn’t get it right! Finally, this time round, I just told myself that “I can do ANYTHING”! And I had another go at it! Got it right! Did it very well actually (or so I was told)! I still don’t feel completely confident about it though, but, I figured that with the help of some more reading material, I will be able to completely master it.

So, with me, the main problem was “fear of failure”. I avoided trying new things just ‘coz I was afraid that I won’t be successful in doing them. That was the main cause of “reluctance to change” in me.

But now I’m not afraid. I know deep down that I can do anything – I just have to set my mind and heart on it! Nothing is impossible for me anymore! And the only way to overcome my fears is to face them head on… with the unshakable faith that I will be delivered across!

Certain things might not have worked out for me in the past. (For example, I always seemed to attract the worst kind of landlords and PG owners.) Certain things might not have worked out for others. (For example, marriage.) But, I am not “others”… and their experiences need not necessarily be mine! For that matter, even my own bad experiences of the past need not necessarily be repeated in the exact same way! I AM THE MASTER OF MY UNIVERSE! And I have it in me to create completely new “movies” in my life – with completely new endings!

I have always been scared of marriage – as all those who know me well, know! But now I have decided to take the plunge. I don’t know with whom or when, but I know that I can make it work differently for me. I know that marriage does not necessarily have to be a “binding” for me. In fact, I know that marriage will, instead, provide me with even greater opportunities for personal growth! It will enable me to acquire and develop newer ways of self expression and of handling various situations!

I have enough creative powers within me to change the repetitive experiences of failure in my life – be it in financial aspects, or in health or in relationships, or whatever else – and so do you!

We all have the freedom and the power to do things “differently”… and to create different endings for our life story. And, more importantly, we all are MEANT TO BE successful in ALL aspects of life and not just say the financial or material aspect, while we remain “poor” health-wise and relationship-wise!

What's My Personality Type?

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Intuition

You are:

A true word smith - a master of words

Original, spontaneous, and a true inspiration

Highly energetic, up for any challenge

Entertaining and engaging, both to friends and strangers

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What Is My Hidden Talent?

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative.

You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential.

Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them.

As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

How To Unlock My Heart?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

How Do Men See Me?

Men See You As Understated

You are an intriguing mix of girl and woman.

You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men.

Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you.

You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

See! I Told You So!

You Are 16% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world.

And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

What Flower Am I?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.

People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.

You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.

Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

If I Were A Dessert, What Would I Be?

You Are a Brownie

Decadent and intense, you aren't for the weak hearted.

Those who can deal with your strong flavor find out how sweet you really are.

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My Handwriting Analysis

What Your Handwriting Says About You

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how to pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.

You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical.

You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.

You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.

You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.

You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

Again... It's All In The Name!

What Kaddu Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.

You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.

People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

I Get My "Sex Appeal" From The Numbers Of My Name!

You Are Very Sexy

Damn! You are one hot number. You have a lot of sex appeal.

You know you're sexy, and you're not afraid to put it all out there.

And while you're very appealing, you're careful not to be trashy or over the top.

Sexy is all about attitude. And you totally have the attitude that people love.

How You Are Sexy

You are flirtatious and fun with most people. You know how to keep things light, friendly, and sexy.

You are secure in social situations, and you definitely have a confident vibe. And that's very sexy.

Your modern look is sexy. You don't give people too much of the same old thing. You like to change it up.

You accept your body as it is, and that's sexy. If you feel attractive, you are more attractive - no matter what your shape is.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

Hot... Am I?

You Are Cayenne Pepper

You are very over the top and a bit overwhelming.

You have a fiery personality, and you can give anyone a good jolt.

You can easily take things up a couple notches, no matter what crowd you're running with.

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What Kind Of Puzzle Is Kaddu?

You Are a Jigsaw Puzzle

You are a complex person, although at first glance you seem quite simple.

Your personality is comprised of many interesting and distinct pieces.

You are captivating and often visually interesting. You can be seen from many angles.

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Disturbingly Profound or Profoundly Disturbing?

You Are Disturbingly Profound

You're contemplative, thoughtful, and very intense.

Taking time to figure out the meaning of life is a priority for you.

Because you're so introspective, you often react in ways that surprise people.

No one can really understand how you are on the inside... and that disturbs them.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!

For All Locks Have Keys...

The Keys to Your Life

Anything good in your life comes from your ability to play and be free.

The best way for you to solve a problem is to let go of it.

Anything bad in your life comes from sinking to the level of those around you.

Remember to lift people up, and refuse to participate in anything petty.

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Up, Up And Away!

Your Personality at 35,000 Says...

Deep down, you prefer spending time alone to spending time with others. You enjoy thinking more than talking.

You are good with your place in the world. You are confident and comfortable with who you are.

Your gift is having a way with words. You know how to express yourself well.

You are inspired by what is unknown. You are drawn to the exotic.

It's very easy for you to feel happy. You can find peace with any situation.

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My Flip-Flops Really Know Me !!

What Your Flip Flops Say About You

You are crazy, and mostly in a good way.

You have wild ideas, many of which seem drug induced.

You are open to new experiences, and you are a bit of a drifter.

You're never sure what you'll be doing tomorrow... and you like it that way.

Your ideal warm weather place: the Gold Coast of Australia

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Which Of The 5 Senses Am I?

You are the Sense of Touch

You are a highly sensitive and easily moved person.

You love to get as close to other people as possible.

Human connection is very important to you.

You are also likely to be an animal lover who loves animals as much as humans.

In fact, you like almost anything soft!

You have expensive taste in clothes and furniture. It's all about the fabric.

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A Sneak Peak At My Soul

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.

You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. Your feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds.

You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself.

Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Here's more in "Who-Am-I"!


I haven't even left home yet (will be doing so this Saturday evening) and I'm already feeling homesick!

For the first time in 7 years, I'm feeling this way about leaving home. I don't know why. The weather outside completely reflects my mood inside -- both are gloomy and pouring.

Have been trying to pack my stuff for last 2 days now -- don't even feel like touching the suitcase. Every time I open my almirah to take my clothes out, I get this funny feeling in the tummy.

Today morning finally, I started crying. I don't want to go. I don't know why. I have been away from home so many times before, and for even longer periods. But, never before did I behave like I was off on my very first day at school!

My dad started laughing at me, saying I was behaving like I was going to my "sasuraal". Incidentally, I also never understood (until today that is) as to why the Indian brides cried so much when they left their parents after getting married.

I haven't got married... and I'm only going for 4 months... and my dad has said he'll come and visit... but I still can't stop the tears.



Try holding sand in a tightly closed fist and it immediately slips out from the sides, but, loosen your hand a bit and it remains comfortably in your hand!

I cannot be tied down in senseless rules and bindings anymore. "Freedom", "adventure", "spontaneity" and "fun" are the new keywords of my life!

No more playing re-runs of the same old movies... it's time for some totally brand new experiences!

New Kaddu... new life... new chapters in "my book"! Even my new haircut mirrors my "free spirits"! :-D

P.S. - I still wish I had arms big enough to hug the whole earth! :-p

Catching Up...

Been very busy the last week...

  • had some visitors

  • had an eye test

  • also had a thyroid test (still waiting for the results -- hope it isn't positive!)

  • had another "baby" (oh ok! fixed-up another dying computer!)

  • ordered some "designer kurtis"

  • filed the IT returns for last year

  • found out my new BSNL landline number (still without the phone though 'coz of some cable fault in my area due to excessive rains)

  • started on a complete new "life-supporting" diet (not "dieting" though!)

  • sprained or twitched some nerve in my right hip, which was extremely painful!

  • learnt a new feature in google chat (I don't use it so often, hence not very tech-savvy in it!)

  • and some other stuff which I don't wanna blog about right now! (personal) :)

Been planning to post another "memorabilia"... something from my old collection... maybe tomorrow...